Well i wanted to just express some thoughts as they have come to mind. Yesterday i felt low but at the same time hopefull and that is something i am thankful for. Life is stressful these days being out of work yet i keep looking for the positive in it all. Im doing my best at this point and i will keep pushing no matter what. I often think of giving up but to be honest i have no idea what giving up means besides killing yourself and my life isnt that bad. Its been just me and the boys for a while and its a good time for me to reconnect as mommy. I appreciate the time with them. i dont have many friends and im cool with that the people i do consider my friends are going through some things. Why is it that people complain when someone isnt there and when u try to be there they shut u out and when u stop trying they say ur not there for them? Well imma go take the boys to the store.