I am up feeling all kinds of ways. I remember living in ct being home with kids and feeling like life was ok i mean i wasnt perfect but i was comfortable. Now i feel very uncomfortable who knew it would take almost two years or more for me to get back on track. With all the ups and downs of just today i have done my best not to feel sorry for myself or my situation instead before i fall alseep tonight i will pray to god that tomorrow is better and will make me stronger. The interview went well today i may have to do a second interview but thats cool its all worth it in the end. I am going to try to get some sleep i am feeling so low today a hug would be nice but then again i am laying here with my boys and i cant ask for more than that. I appreciate the people who are currently in my life. They are great....ok im sad im going to sleep.