Sex love and pain????

Ok so as yall know I am always listening to music and it makes me think of things or people then I come here and share. So today has been a really nice day last night was kinda weird could have went in many directions but Treece kept me focused...until she wanted to hit the casino lol. anyway today was nice and its still nice i am sitting here watching the boys watch tv about to make some dinner and looking forward to a nice week of working towards life accomplishments. this week will bring a lot of clarity for me and my situation, I am going to grind this thing out and make some drastic changes but well thought out changes. The past couple of months I have been just making moves but all in the same direction like walking in circles, steady walking but going no where. sometimes you have to sit still just to think and get your thoughts together. I know for me its hard to talk about my situation to people because its like admitting you were wrong, admitting you made a huge mistake and you cant change what you have done, you cant go back in time, and even your apology isnt going to change the situation. I have had times like that in my life, regret and emotions but now its harder than ever. I just want to call and say..I'm sorry, I love you, come back...but that wont change what has happened in the past, that wont make things right. I have to do this on my own, I have to first forgive myself for what I have done then maybe after time all can be forgiven. I cant sit and focus on that, I know she is happy with her life now, I know things are where she wants them to be and I am happy for her, now I have to work on me.

so now i have a serious ass headache damn man this shit is hurting lol yet I am playing Tank loud as hell on my headphones *shrug* Ok I think thats it for now I have spilled all my life to yall enough for now. Note for today is...instead of just living life and making mistakes, try learning from that mistake and do your best not to make it again, see I make them again and again but in different ways...until next time.