Parenting

Life will take you through changes but children will take you through so much more. Until this past weekend I felt like the hardest thing about being a parent was being financially responsible and making sure you are always able to provide for children but I am realizing just now that its so much more than that but the biggest thing is doing your best to keep your child safe, away from harm. I promise me having 4 children just increases my chances of something happen to them and while I do my best not to think of it that way I have to time from time. The weird thing is that one my children it the most hyper child ever. I wouldnt say he has a problem or anything I just think he fears nothing and wants to know everything. Its beautiful to see him explore except when he explores the wrong thing. He is a twin and his twin is very laid back and doesnt want to know much about anything, he kind of just watches his brother do random things. I cant at this point count the things he has done in his little four years of life but the latest thing has really put me in a place in life. I am not going to go into what he did but long story short I had to take him to the ER once again he has been there so much its crazy. No matter how much you watch him and keep tabs on him he will find a way to do something and it only takes a second. The incident happened Sunday and right now its Tuesday at 9:58pm and I cant seem to stop crying about it. Thank God he is ok and I truly do thank God but wow I keep crying thinking about what could have happend. I actually stayed home from work today....just really needed to get my thoughts together about the whole thing. I just ......its a lot being a parent thats all I can say. You can never imgaine the emotional rollercoasters you will go through as a mom, like i have truly done my best to protect my children from everything but I realize that I can but i have to do my best in all I do as a parent...*shrug* well I am going to attempt to just lay down and relax my thoughts. Not sure about work tomorrow I may go, or I just may stay home. This week has already started off weird...not sure what will come of it....goodnight