Ummm yeah

This week has been the usual unexpected things that go on in my life with no real ending to much of it. I have been working with someone on a new business type situation where we are going to try to open a new lesbian night club. Our first night is actually this Saturday and I am excited to be doing something and watching it all come into play. This is something her and I talked about last year when we were still in a relationship and now that we arent its still nice that we can work together. I have to say its not easy ( now let me stop for a min and think if I want to talk about this here....well...since I do plan on writing a book and exposing myself why not go ahead and say it here) we have battled a few times since this all started about 2 weeks ago. The last battle we had left us both angry and we said a lot of things. I am sitting here now just knowing I want to club to still go on regardless of how I feel about her and what she said. My issue (you knew it had to be an issue if i was talking about it here) is that we both said its business nothing personal and I am cool with all that because thats the way it needs to be. My therapist said yesterday hell we fight and argue but even business partners dont get along but that doesnt mean they cant do amazing things together. I think her and I have great minds that if put into the right thing will work well together we just have to focus so here is the problem I am having right now. Earlier today my business partner and I were going back and forth in emails about what we need to do and how we are working towards getting things finished so we can get to Saturday and have everything done. Towards the end of the day she sent me an email saying someone wanted to talk to me and I was more open to someone wanting to talk. Now from what I know of the person that wanted to talk to me has been involved in this also she I was thinking she wanted to run an idea by me or something like that, i didnt take the time to think that if it was about the business she would have just ran it by my partner....but that did cross my mind when I got an email saying that her person decided she didnt want to talk to me because it could go in the wrong direction. That for me said this doenst have anything to do with the business more on a personal level. Now as of yesterday my business partner and I were very clear that its business and nothing else. I talked to my therapist about the big fight her and I had and how we were once again walking away from eachother and not turning back. My therapist said not all business partners get along they fight and go through things too, if we can just focus on whats important to both of us then everything will play out the way its supposed to her having her personal life and me having mine and us working together as a team. Now where the issue came for me today was her person wanting to talk like can you see the wives of Johnson and Johnson talking to eahother about something other than baby powder?? thats my point here, 1. if you want to talk me talk to me, 2 if you want to keep it focused on the business then do that 3. if you are going to come at me in a way you feel like could mess with the business...dont. Now I am not saying I am perfect and I always do the right thing but people...think before you speak thats my new thing for the rest of the day think before i speak think before i act, think before i fucking think lol. anyway I am not feeling any kind of way right now I have to say honestly I feel good tonight. A lot was done today things seem finalized and thats a blessing. Other things that may come up between my business partner and myself may come and they may not but one thing i wont do is add fuel to the fire...im here....nuff said. Ok yall keep Sat night in your prayers I hope this goes well and this could be the begining of something amazing ...mentally.