Ok I have put all my thoughts together

I am actually at work right now blogging, not going home this present moment because I have a few things to do here at the job. I have been feeling stressed for over a month now and I havent had any real outlet of any kind and yesterday I felt a weight lifted off of me. Not that everything is fixed and I am in the clear but I went to church and that alone was a big step for me. I have never went to church alone before and never really because I wanted to but I made a commitment to God and myself and I am not really good with commitments but yesterday I did it and only good things can come because of it. Things are ok right now in my life, still not great but ok and they are only ok because I can clearly see where things need to go and I am making every effort of doing that. I have been faced with some serious challenges in the past 3 years and I have dealt with them all in the same kind of way. Sweeping them under the rug but now I face them head one and finally do something about them instead of making excuses for them. One of my problems or one of the privileges I have taken advantage of is women and my dealings with them, I realize now sometimes you just have to take a time out to yourself and reflect on what you want to do next and if you add someone to that mix it can alter the outcome. I am going to be taking some time to sit alone for a while and think things through. I am not looking for outside influences just simply me...Neeve...thinking about it and coming up with a goal and a plan. Today during lunch I set various different goals for myself and the children and also worked up a travel plan and budget for us in sept. We are going to go away for a week and just spend some time relaxing and having fun. I am looking forward to that. Well anyway I am feeling confident and positive. I am not out of the woods yet I still deal with a lot of pain and stress and mental break downs but hey who doesnt. I have therapy today and I love my therapist she really gets it....even when she doesnt lmao. Ok thanks for reading maybe I have helped someone or maybe someone can help me lol