Confessions.....

Today as I said before was one of those days where I am not looking for any type of happiness or anything really it was just a blah day all day for me and then the day was coming to an end and I noticed my mood started going in the right direction and I did not fight it or ask myself why. I have been talking to God a lot these days and something I noticed today was that I take a lot of calls everyday and I just realized how many people bless me each day. these people dont know me and will never see me nor even talk to me again but God has put it in their hearts to say "God bless you" and everytime its said to me I smile and say the same to them. Its amazing the effect God can have on your life once you start to understand and move towards him. I wouldnt not say I am a non sinner or anything like that but I do have God in my life and I am happier becacause of it. I am going through some really rough stuff right now and sometimes I just want to throw in the towel but that wouldnt be like me at all to do so I have to keep fighting, the one thing I have learned that you have to be honest with people even if it will hurt them. I have been honest with some and others I have sheltered from the truth in order to not hurt them but now I feel like this. Appreciate my honesty and in the long run you will be ok with my truths. I am not here to hurt anyone but just to live and take care of me and the kids. I have been talking back and forth with an...friend? ex? well I dont know what I want to call her right now but anyway things are going ok with that just sometimes I feel so onesided like she knows everything about me and I know nothing about her......maybe because I am so much more open than her or maybe my level of craziness in my life amuses her. I am sitting here feeling like that but all in all its my choice to talk or not to talk about whatever problems I may or may not be having. I am gonna go work out and let off this stress. Kids home tomorrow and nothing or no one can stop that from bringing joy to my life. Tonight is going to be quiet...its always like that before they come home but house is clean and all is ok....for now. I am going to go now because thats it for the blog today.

------ever miss someone and feel like youre feelings are pointless and useless...so you keep them to yourself?

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