I want so much more than what you can offer

I was on twitter just now and I was talking about how I pre-planned this blog and I normally just blog but this one I wanted to talk about because so many people go through this so here goes: In life you can enter into relationships or friendships and there are times when you have to ask yourself, "Is this the best I can do?" now I know most people only think like that in relationships but friendships too. I know when I was younger I went through different friends because I felt like they werent healthy for me and so I made changes, now there are some I wouldnt change but others I let go of. Now that I am older I don't really base my life on friends, I mean its nice to have someone to talk to and hang out with time from time but I have to say I have messed up friendships with sex so me being without one is ok (right now) Now let me move on to relationships. When you first meet someone sometimes they put their best foot forward sometimes there best foot is some bullshit, so you know from the door what youre getting into. Now the ones that come in showing us someone that they arent we are kinda fooled into it but someone can only hide themselves for so long. I know as women we want the best for our mate, we want to see them for the best person they can be, no matter how horrible of a person they may be we are in hopes for all the better....yet...we end up disappointed. There are very few people in this world who are willing to do a full 360 and change their full person to please another and really one shouldnt have to. Take me for instance, I am a very stern person, I like things my way, I'm very unemotional at times, very distant and non caring but I have my aww moments too. Someone like me isnt going to change because I don't see anything wrong with the way i am so its truly take it or leave it. Now if I am with someone and I don't like who they are then I will let it be known and sit and watch to see either their progression or digression. After a certain amount of time, if I have had to endure the same shit repeatedly then I need to sit down and do some pros and cons (lol@Tan) and once that is complete I will come up with a decision. Now doing this isnt easy because I will always be losing out on something but i have to see how valuable that something is to me, and if its something I can do without. I sm going through some weird feelings about a couple of things tonight and its weird they all apply to this blog yet they arent all based on the same person and thats what I meant in the begining it could be a friendship or a relationship. To end this I have to say Love isnt always enough it takes love, and RESPECT...if I respect you I don't do the things you dislike and if you love me you wont do the things I dislike and if we continue to do those things, then we have shown how we truly feel. Ok its getting late today is the last day of these stupid cough meds so imma hit the sack early and be up and running again tomorrow.
Until next time....oh yeah stay tuned...my website is in the works....