Bitter sweet

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Yesterday I was handing out with the kids and we were getting dinner I was in the process of getting a salad when this guy comes up to me and tells me this story about how he had a flat tire and lived 45mins away and had no money for a tire. Now I have been approached for money before from strangers but this time I just happened to not have a lot of cash on me. I explained to him that I only had two dollars on me and he said he would take that and ask more people. I even thought about just going to the tire place with him and using my card but I had the kids and didnt want to put them in danger. I rolled up the window while I was getting the dollars and then my son and daughter all of a sudden pull all the money they have in their pockets out to give to this man so he could get a tire. I am a strong believer in helping people who need it. We were all able to help and what touched me is my children are just as giving as i am and that was amazing.

Today at the twins school they were having pizza pj night and this is where you wear your pj's to school and have pizza and read books. I read to them in the classroom and it was so cute how everyone interacted with the story I was again touched by the innocents of a child. Some poeple spend so much time with the social lives or their love lives that they don't put in enough effort into their children. If your child spends more than two weekends at the baby sitters house so you can go out and do whateer then you are truly doing too much. If you are leaving your child late hours of the night to do random shit you are truly doing too much. I just spent some time thinking about the few "parents" i know and sometimes its sad.

Today was another weird point I havent talked to my therapist for a little while because I had a issue and now I went to her and it was refreshing and yet bitter sweet........point here is that she has helped me in amazing ways and I finally let go of things that should have been let go of years ago....its great to know the truth about things and people and once you know the truth you don't hold a grudge you just realize they werent even worth your time or effort and I am a better person for it. Also some people will always get what they have been getting because they keep doing the same things. Like why expect something different dont expect someone to love you when you dont even know how to love yourself dont expect someone to love you when you stalk them into being with you dont expect someone to love you when you are obviously desperate yet claim you can have anyone...if you could have anyone then why keep dealing with the same sorry fucked up people...maybe...because...youre not worth anyone good maybe you don't have shit to offer but the bottom of the barrel.
well i am watching bad girls club....then imma pass out

Until next time......