Its been a while

I really havent had the time to blog these days with the new work hours. I love the new hours when I am getting off early but I am still adjusting to getting up that early in the morning. I love this for the summer time I am not sure how it will feel in the winter at the crack of dawn. Things have been really calm these days, went through a small misunderstanding with someone but for the most part life is great. I have learned there are always ways in life you just have to find them. I spent a lot of time ignoring things in life and just going on with life business as usual but now I pay attention and work on changing any things that are wrong in my life that are within my control. The one huge thing in my life that never really worked out was my relationship, I was going about things all wrong. I spent years cheating and just wanting my girlfrend to accept it instead of working hard at figuring out how to stop doing stupid stuff and just focus on the good things. I can say I have stopped so many ways and I always wondered if I would get where I am now. I always was a hard worker and a loving mom but I never really knew how to be a good girlfriend. I remember my ex used to say what a horrible girlfriend I was, see I thought I was funny and great to be around but what I wasnt was commited. Its bad to look back at those who came vicitim to what I did but its a learning lesson. I am a better person now and I truly love me and where I am in life. I have finally decided to go ahead and buy a home. With what I a paying in rent I can invest in a home, there are a few I am going to look at tomorrow and Thursday. All in all this blog is simply to say dont allow someone else to make you happy or complete you, just make you happy and all else will fall into place. I finally have a 5 year plan and am putting things into place. I will be taking my first vacation alone in october. I sam heading to NC for a while and then hitting ATL for pride. I am excited about what this year has to bring but even more excited about next yaar. I am excited about seeing old friends in Oct and meeting some new ones. Ok I am giong to take a blog break and handle some business....nuff said for now...i will get deeper into life later..